Archive for March, 2010

Emotional crash and burn…

March 21, 2010

Been a rough couple of days.

Just heard that my mother is having liver problems, which was stress enough, then today, we agonizingly made the decision to take our oldest to the state psychiatric hospital.

My wife cried over it all night, while I was out here on the road and couldn’t be there for her. It is tearing me up inside, but I know it is the right thing to do.

Honestly, I feel like vomiting, it has me so knotted up.  No one likes to think they can’t raise their own child, but it has come to that. It is not safe for her at home for her, her siblings or for us.

So now I must turn my first born over to people I don’t know and who may or may not care what happens to her, and expose her to being abused or just constantly sedated. God help me, and whoever does it, if she is abused. I may go to jail, but they will face their creator immediately after I beat them into paste with a large hammer and then feed them through a wood chipper.

Now if you will excuse me, I’m going to go over here and cry my eyes out too.